So why is it that something so simple can blow up so big?
Or make you realise something that you probably knew all along.
Maybe I'm not cut out for this life I chose, but can't change that now.
I have to stand up and try not to fuck it up too much,
well no more than I already have.
How do I do that?
If I knew that then I wouldn't feel like this.
I'm sure I've said that I'll make changes before and they never happen,
so why will they this time?
I don't know that they will.
But I don't know if I can go on like this.
The feeling of self loathing caused by one look of fear and hatred,
Hopefully that can be the catalyst that I need,
If not then I really don't deserve what I have and I will then have another decision to make.
I must do what is best for others and not myself.
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